By the grace of God, I grew up knowing who Jesus was. I knew about Him and I knew what He did for me. But I didn't really know what it meant to have a PERSONAL relationship with Him.
And though I professed him as my savior my heart and desires had not been transformed.
I did good things because I thought good things were what made me good.
I depended on the acceptance of others to find my worth.
And while in college I chased empty pleasures to satisfy and fill me up.
Proverbs 16:25 says "There is a way that seems right to man, but in the end it leads to death."
And my ways were heading that direction.
But the lord had different plans. He pulled me out of the toxic environment I had created for myself and brought me to a new city for nursing school.
He brought me to this city - a city I said I would never live in - to open my eyes and heart to what he really did for me. To what the gospel really means and how it really applies to me.
Romans 5:8 says that God shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
In 2014, I fully surrendered my life to Jesus who had been waiting for me to come back to Him.
And now, by His grace, my heart has been changed forever.
I now know that there is no amount of good works that could ever make me good enough for God.
But that He calls me good when I accepted His son as my savior.
I now know that it is by GRACE through faith that I have been saved. And not by any works of my own.
I now know that I have already been accepted and do not depend on the acceptance of others to define my worth.
And I now know that there is no greater joy or pleasure or adventure than to follow and be with Jesus all the days of my life.
And that is what I hope and pray to do.
“I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
Galatians 2:20 CSB